perfect example:

i am the perfect example of i want exactly what i can never have, and than even if eventually i stumble upon it i wont want it anymore..IT JUST WONT BE GOOD ENOUGH. fuck me! ( sorry) but you just cant be happy here. skinny girls who say they want to loose weight drives me up the wall and back! fuck. i just want to stop wanting what i dont have. look at myself and just be satisfied! happy! i hate this thing i have, of always looking around. thats it! im going to close my eyes, i dont need to look at the girl next to me, compare, check, count, question. JUST FUCKIN DO IT! i really wont be afraid, theres not point of holding back, the only outcome that comes from that is regret, why didnt i do that? just fuck it! do it, love it, and dont you dare regret it!